Written by Dawn Rutan
Thinking about Jesus’ life and ministry, it is tempting to berate the Jews and Gentiles who only followed Him because He provided a free meal or healed the sick. But I wonder if our motives are much better sometimes. We seek Him for peace, for physical or emotional healing, for provision for our basic needs, but salvation is far down on our list, if it makes the list at all. Just consider the people and things that populate our prayer lists.
Warren Wiersbe writes, “They wanted immediate relief from their troubles at no cost to themselves. Life was difficult, and they were excited to find somebody who could so easily meet their needs… Like many people today, they had a ‘commercial attitude’ toward Jesus and wanted Him to meet their personal needs, but they didn’t want Him to deal with their sins and change their hearts!” (Jesus in the Present Tense, 33).
I suspect there are many within the church who fall into the same category. They want to feel better, experience community with people similar to themselves, and raise their children in a good, moral atmosphere, but not to be convicted of their sins and asked to turn full control of their lives over to God. Wiersbe goes on to say, “When it comes to making a decision about Jesus Christ, we have three choices: (1) believe in Him and be saved, as did eleven of the apostles; (2) reject Him but pretend to be saved, as did Judas; or (3) reject Him openly and walk away, as did the multitude. In His parable about the wheat and tares (Matt. 13:24-30, 36-43), Jesus made it clear that there are counterfeit Christians like Judas mixed in with the authentic children of God, but at the end of the age they will be exposed and condemned” (44).
It is unclear from the Gospels whether the other disciples knew Judas was an impostor. John reflects back to point out Judas’s motives early in Jesus’ ministry, but it seems that only Jesus knew the truth: “For Jesus knew from the beginning who those were who did not believe, and who it was who would betray Him” (John 6:64 ESV). If the disciples were in the dark Christians, and even pastors, today may be just as deceived about the true condition of any person’s heart. While there may be indicators, only God truly knows the heart (Psalm 44:21, Proverbs 24:12). I would suggest that some individuals don’t even know their own motives, for “the heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?” (Jeremiah 17:9).
At the same time, it is likely that those who fear or doubt their salvation are more likely true believers than those who have no doubts. C.S. Lewis writes to a correspondent, “The moment one asks oneself ‘Do I believe?’ all belief seems to go. I think this is because one is trying to turn round and look at something which is there to be used and work from—trying to take out one’s eyes instead of keeping them in the right place and seeing with them… you know better than I how very unreliable introspection is. I should be much more alarmed about your progress if you wrote claiming to be overflowing with Faith, Hope and Charity” (Yours, Jack, p. 144-145). One who makes such claims, along with those who are completely unconcerned with the state of their faith, are in far more danger than those who have doubts and fears.
Hebrews 6:11-12 says, “And we desire each one of you to show the same earnestness to have the full assurance of hope until the end, so that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and patience inherit the promises.” The NIV puts it, “We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, in order to make your hope sure.” It’s not that the good works mentioned in verse 10 are themselves the assurance, but that they are an indicator of where our hope truly lies.
“Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure” (Philippians 2:12b-13). John Piper says of this passage, “God it the decisive worker here. He wills and he works for his good pleasure. But believing this does not make Christians passive. It makes them hopeful and energetic and courageous” (Future Grace, p. 291).
Jesus is the “founder and perfecter of our faith” (Hebrews 12:2), “the beginning and the end” (Revelation 22:13), the One who draws people to Himself (John 6:44), and the One who will never lose one of His sheep (John 10:28-29). If that is the case, then believers can have faith and hope in Him and can rest in His care. Those who “fall away” are those who were never really His children to begin with. They may have put up a good front and deceived many, perhaps even themselves, but at some level they never trusted in Jesus as both Savior and Lord. They may have expected His salvation, but they never let Him be Lord of their lives.
“…nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known… Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. So everyone who acknowledges Me before men, I also will acknowledge before My Father who is in heaven” (Matthew 10:26, 31-32).
