Written by Cara Brock
Hey you,
You defy the laws of science. Or maybe time travel. Sometimes I’m convinced I’ll meet you in three years. Other times I’m sure I already know you. On good days, you’re like a mile marker on the highway – coming up soon, sooner if I speed. On bad days, you’re the car five ahead of me, finessing through the fast lane, moving further and further away; I simply can’t catch up. Though honestly, in all days, you’re beside me. You and I travel parallel roads, day in and day out. But look closer and you’ll see we aren’t so parallel. We’re perpendicular, destined to meet when the moment is right and the scenery is humbling and the mood is true. And when we meet – boy when we meet – there’s no stopping us.
See when we meet, we’ll merge paths, we’ll begin to blaze our own trail. The best part? We don’t know where we’re going. Nay, the real best part: we’ve got a Guide who will lead us through the craziest, toughest, and loveliest journey. And He’s been with us all along, alone, and He’ll be with us forever, together. God’s got it mapped out. He will challenge us and develop us. With our Lord, we will get to take the scenic route and witness things we can’t even plan for.
Mister, you’ve got everything I need in a travel companion. I know this because I trust the Lord. He is well aware of what a …specific… person I am. And let’s be honest, for you to handle it, you must be pretty wonky too. But that’s so incredibly wonderful that my heart’s swelling just thinking of it. I am so excited to marry a weirdo. Not just marry – I get to become one with you. A double-strange vessel working to serve and honor the Lord. For a while, I assumed that Jesus wasn’t allowing our meeting because the timing wasn’t right or that he was only working on you. I was ready, you just had to reach me. Man, was I wrong. In the last year, He has made it abundantly clear that I am currently not equipped to marry you. This is not to say He isn’t still preparing your heart – I believe and hope that He is – but I certainly have come to realize my underdeveloped parts too. I need to fuel up with all that Jesus is. Before I can connect with you, I must be with God first. Right now I make a promise to you that I will focus on growing in the Lord and finding peace in Him, not you. Because from the perspective I have now, you’d become my destination. You’re supposed to be the Point B to my Point A, and together we head for point C – eternity with our Creator.
This is not to say I am positive you are an Earthly man. While I have prayed, presently pray, and will continue to pray that there is a guy out there who will pursue me as Christ pursued the church, it’s possible that you are Christ. Truthfully, as someone who has seen herself married with five babies her whole life, this scares me. Why though? I should be celebrating the fact that I may be called to singleness with man, but am betrothed to Perfection. Christ loves me like no one can. He cares for me with a love stronger and more enduring than that found in any Nicholas Sparks book. I should delight in this. I am trying. Each day that I haven’t found “my guy” I’m becoming a bit more accepting of this potential calling. I need to remember what I’m told in Isaiah 54:5, “For thy Maker [is] thine husband; the LORD of hosts [is] his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.” Jesus also said to me “I will betroth thee unto me for ever; yea, I will betroth thee unto me in righteousness, and in judgment, and in lovingkindness, and in mercies” (Hosea 2:19). So really, this option sounds pretty fantastic too.
But if I do have a man out there who I will one day wed, I hope you don’t mind my sharing this letter. There will be plenty to be said just between us, but I can’t help but want to share my love for you with others! We’ve got a long road ahead of us and a millions of sites to see. So pack your bags, cutie, we’re going on a road trip.
Yours fondly and forever,
Me
